the ozkans

i just found the most wonderful pictures of my dad, his ex-wife, my brother and sister.









these two were taken at the summer resort type place where my dad still lives year-long.





















this is my brother's circumcision ceremony.

james brown & clay tyson - i can't stand myself

the whole thing is one riff. fuck choruses.

grant green - idle moments

holy shit

i figured out what to say

Sarah,



Sarah, sarah, sarah.

Goddamn.




I would never have expected the kind of inconsiderateness, disrespect and cruelty I saw this summer from someone I loved.

And I wouldn’t have thought you were capable of it.

You’ve proven me wrong over and over, and I want you to know that you’ve lost my friendship and my respect.

I’m not going to go over the details,
but I will say that the girl that called Kristin Malossi
to say she couldn’t believe Kristin told me about seeing you and Matt
is not the girl I knew.

I don’t want excuses and I don’t want apologies.
It’s too late for that. And you’re not forgiven.

I do want you to know that if I said goodbye and stopped talking to you,
or unfriended you on Facebook,
it’s not about you.
It’s not a punishment and it’s not a statement.
Those are things I did for myself.

I didn’t think I was capable of being disappointed in you anymore,
but you were vein enough to think it was about you,
and ugly enough to confront me about it.
that was everything.

I appreciate it in a way because it made it that much easier to forget about you.

And it helped me find the dignity in being the bigger person.
Like Matt showing up to Paolo’s party
and you showing up to my house yesterday,
and not having the stomach to look me in the eye.
you deserve each other.


I’m telling you this because I want to let go of my hatred and my anger.
Because you’re not worth it.

And if this angers you, or strikes you as unfair,
keep it to yourself.
You owe me that at the least.




OKBYE

Kate Bush - Running Up That Hill

new room!

i profiled jackie and persephone for creative loafing.

the CL office is cool.

i covered a meet-n-greet with local politicians in a library. it was so boring.

I dunno, I'm tired all the time. I like the restaurant I'm working at a lot. Business is slow so the money isn't great yet.

Jeremy gets here Tuesday!

How is DC Jordan?
Paolo where are you, how are you? What are you?

Darling,
You asked me to write you a letter, so I am writing you a letter. I do not know why I am writing this letter, or what this letter is supposed to be about, but I am writing it nonetheless, because I love you very much and trust that you have some good purpose for having me write this letter. I hope that one day you will have the experience of doing something you do not understand for someone you love.
Your father

-Jonathan Safran Foer

i don't sleep because i don't want to wake up.