Someone Still Loves You Boris Yeltsin - Modern Mystery

i don't know the most honest way to do this. i ran into your blogs on your computers and read them and i'm sorry for that. they were hard to avoid. it was like the third time it had popped up in paolo's url bar. so i looked. and it didn't seem too private at first glance? i still feel guilty.

i was kind of jealous, because i like the idea a lot, and i know i should write more, and also because you are two people who i want to be closer with.

and i was sad because you had abandoned the blogs. and it is a simple way to communicate, and things are always getting too complicated. that is generally true, and it is especially true with you.

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i miss new york dearly. i miss the basketball most.
do you know that scene in trainspotting where tommy is sad about getting dumped and someone asks him something about it and he pauses and says,
"...mostly i just miss the sex."

well mostly i just miss the basketball.

i was talking to misha about not knowing if loving pam was a good thing. she got a little annoyed with me.
"kerem. loving someone is always a good thing."
"oh yeah!"